Hal,

I used the ...swirling process twice this week on some long-held issues.

On Monday, I returned to work after a 2 week vacation, and my boss did not welcome me back as I thought she should have. I noticed that seeking her approval was huge for me and did the swirling process on that. I went through my life, going backwards from present to past, and then went beyond my birth. I did not want to be born again. I felt that I had done all the work I needed to do on this plane, and desperately did not want to come back. I was angry as I was in the womb, and took an intrauterine breath, filling my lungs with amniotic fluid in an attempt not to be born. I righteously felt that I was above any further lessons.

I got an overwhelming response that I needed to be here precisely because I felt I was above it all. I am here due to my arrogance, and my overwhelming message was I was here to learn HUMILITY. Wow! I was sobbing at all the arrogance I have had, and all the times I missed opportunities to make a difference because I couldn't get out of my own arrogance to see it. I let go of the upset related to years --if not centuries-- of hurting others due to my arrogance. The next day at work was a joy. I felt transformed and humbled.

Later in the week, my boss said that the head of our compny told her I was a "loose cannon." I did the swirling process on this. I again went through my whole life, remembering that every single boss/teacher has said some version of "loose cannon" to me. I then dropped through to past lives. I went through many lives in which I was burned at the stake in Salem, was a nun in the concentration camps, and finally --- who knows how far back --- I witnessed my husband cutting my tongue out as punishment for something I said. I vowed at that moment that I would never be silenced again. I saw that this tied in with my sense of arrogance and lack of humility.

Both of these processes have freed me beyond belief (interesting phrase, as that is accurate; I am beyond beliefs). Each day now when I feel that need to speak, I say the word "humility", which dissipates this energy. My relationship with my boss and everyone else has shifted ever so slightly and yet hugely at the same time. I have an easiness that I did not experience before. I feel much less judgmental and much less fearful NOW. Humility works.

Thank you so much for our continued work together. I feel a deep sense of gratitude for you and everyone else in my life. Words cannot express my gratitude for getting the messages I have received this week. Thank you.

"C"

                -- Hal Isen